Hi there friends. For the last year, I've been discovering that a lot of what I believed about my parents and myself, was not true. I've been writing about the narcissistic parental abuse, neglect, endangerment, abandonment, exploitation, manipulation, triangulation, invalidation, parentification, shaming, scapegoating and gaslighting I was subjected to by four self-centered parents. So it's been a lot of heavy stuff. And today's post might be the worst of the worst. Because today I'm exposing narcissistic abuse for the devil's work it is and parental gaslighting about it, for the demonic lies they are.
First, let's clarify this term narcissist. They're not just arrogant, delusional, self-centered and lacking in empathy. They get off on hurting people, especially the covert and malignant narcissists. Narcissists believe they are God and not subject to rules and laws they hold other people up to. But nothing could be farther from the truth which is that narcissists are agents of the devil. Because they gaslight (lie, deceive) with every breath. And we know who is the Father of lies.
And religious zealot narcissists are the very worst of all. I know because I was subject to two who divorced and married other narcissists to whom they enslaved me. I basically lived in two separate but equally awful cults. They fancied themselves preachers and teachers of the good news. But it was very bad news for me. For me, there was no salvation from their demonic torture. And if you think this is exaggerated, I invite you to try living with four people hellbent on destroying you. They said and did things that made me so miserable that I thought everyone would be better off without me
So how did they accomplish this? First you take a kid, when she is very young. The bible says, train up a kid in the way she should got and she won't depart from it. Well, it's also true if you teach her wrong. She'll spend the rest of her life fighting those demons. So you start systematically hurting, endangering, exploiting, neglecting her. You scapegoat her, abandon her from time to time, let horrible people hurt her and make her responsible for parenting you. Next, you gaslight her that it's not happening, she's making it up, showing off, or it's her fault, etc. You tell her it's normal and that you're a loving parent. And worst of all, it's God's will for her to suffer and she's just being rebellious and disobedient.
Now that you have her well-seasoned and groomed with all her resistance worn down, boundaries stomped on and self-esteem shot to shit, she's putty in your hands. You can do any awful thing you want and say whatever crap you want and she'll absorb it. And when you offer her up as a sacrificial victim to your new F buddies, they can do as they like too. Anyone can have a piece. She'll take whatever you dish out and sit up and beg for more. She will do anything to please and appease your insatiable appetite for harm. You can sit back and enjoy the pathetic show she'll put on for your viewing pleasure.
Because now she now not only believes all your gaslighting lies, she gaslights herself. Others might, too. The devil is devilishly good at lying. .But there's one you can't fool and that's God. The real one, not the one you've styled yourself as. He sees your wicked deceitfulness and isn't amused. He sees how you damaged your child to the point of self-harm with your self-serving lies.
You'd better hope there's a purgatory. Cause you've got a lot of work to do and you can't lie your way out of this. God will not be gaslit.
No comments:
Post a Comment