Hi friends. I'm in a foul mood, thanks for asking. It might be best to just give this post a miss. I'm furious and frustrated at how much I've tolerated, forgiven, accepted, allowed to happen to be done to me, all in the name of keeping the peace. THERE IS NO DAMN PEACE when the angry, self-centered people in my life dictate there isn't. No amount of placating, fawning or fixing is gonna make it so.
I'm frustrated and annoyed with myself for letting myself get kicked then rolling over and begging for more. I'm sick of being a bloody Timex, taking a lickin and keepin on tickin. Why? Why do I do this? Why don't I just leave the situation? Why do I keep wasting my time, bending over backwards to make unworkable situations with stubborn, combative people work? Why do I keep showing up to be the only one at the party? Why do I even care? Why does this mean so damn much to me? Why can't I just be who I am and be okay with that and if others aren't, ciao bambino!
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